My Eyes Sting!

Cried so much tdai! just felt so lost and confused on what to do from here and where to go! 

(this is not some eating disorder or self harm or anything life threatening like that btw! it would actually seem so silly to you, but to me this one thing has been  everything to me)

But no-one can understand how deep it really cuts, and how much its ever ment to me! 

and years n years of setbacks and disappointments is just too much now, i just seem to be lying to everyone and myself about it, making out its all great when its really not what i make out, just dnt want people to see how i really feel, and saves me explaining it all! 

but i cant do it nomore….. and thats whats been hurting, the realisation that it could be over!

but i finally found the courage to open up and let all my emotions n thoughts and everything thats ever upset me about it out to my brother tdai, i knew as he had no connection or passion for what i was talking about, hes always able to see a clearer view as he dnt need to fight any courses for anything i talk about……he can just listen and see what i cant see! 

talking to him tnite has made me feel so much better and settled not just about the situation but within me, im not finished yet, and weve made a #masterplan! 

the best masterplan ever, im back to being all smiles and ready to conquer the world! 

I Love My Brother…Thnkoo So Much! :D 

I Just Wanted To Vent! ahhhhhhh……….

“Im Doing This For Me, So Fuck The World, Feed It Beans, Its Gassed Up If It Thinks Its Stopping Me, Ima Be What I Set Out To Be, Without A Doubt, Undoubtedly, And All Those Who Look Down On Me, Im Tearing Down Your Balcony” ♥ #MasterPlan xxx